Update:
Sorry for the delays but I couldn’t post because WordPress wouldn’t let me. WordPress is probably scared of #iamthewalrus so they had to make me remove a link to the Walrus Wiki from my blogroll before they could let me post again. Anyways, I’m back with this HUGE post. It’s actually a summary of most of my days since I left the interwebz. kthx, enjoy.
As you may or may not have noticed, I’ve been gone for a very long time. Now I’m back along with a log of some of the things I did while I was gone from the intarwebz.
August 17 & 18
We had exams. I didn’t review the things I never studied and learned, as usual. I just relied on good luck.
August 19
We were supposed to check our test papers for the entire day but my cousin, Xheng, invited us to skip school. Daniel, Nica and I came along with Xheng’s gf and other friends (who are from the morning session). It was a hell lot of fun.
August 20
Worried about making my own excuse slip, I wasted 5-6 index cards trying to make my handwriting a little less like my own. When I got to school, I wasn’t listed on the board with the students who didn’t have an excuse slip as well. It turns out, I was the only student absent yesterday. None of the teachers caught me and my classmates just asked me where I went and what I did. I lied at first and then I just decided to tell them anyway. School was fun.
August 21 & 22
Slept at my cousins’ place. We played badminton outside, roamed the streets and played at the internet cafe whenever we got bored. When it got really late, we sneaked out and just sat outside talking and watching the other kids at the other side of the street. Later on, they all left and we went inside. It was past midnight. We shared ghost stories in a really dark room when my other cousin, Michael, arrived home after playing computer games with his friends. We talked about random things, Michael read a chapter from his new book, we told stories and tried to stay up for as long as we could. It was so much fun. I fell asleep when I was pretending to be asleep. xD
August 23
My cousins were getting ready to go swimming since the day before. They invited me the night before. When I woke up, we went to my place and I got my things then went back to their place. We got a ride to this resort but we got impatient waiting for it to open so we left. But before we left, this group of friends came and one of them was a gay dude. The rest were gangsters. The gay dude was hot compared to those ugly second hand niggers.
So when we got to this other resort, we shared this huge pool with this other family. There were very few of us there. A huge group of friends suddenly arrive. They were going to share the pool with us. Some of them were gay and some weren’t. There was this one dude that was hot. He had piercings which we discovered after Xheng pointed it out to me. We were confused about his gender for a while. He seemed gay but after a while, we realized he was only goofing around. I also discovered that Nica likes him too. She looks at him a lot (I’ve noticed) and he looks around the pool and looks at Nica and I every now and then.
We had so much fun there. The food my aunt (Xheng’s mom) prepared for us was great too. We tossed a coin around and dived in the waters trying to get it. They say I’m a great diver and I’m really good with swimming at deep parts of the pool and all that. They say I can swim really good but I just seem afraid and I keep denying it. We just swam for hours. Now our skin is really dark and I really hate it but I’m sure I’ll be white again after a week or so. When we left, he was looking at us and we were looking at him. He tried to get our attention earlier. Nica never got to ask for his number but luckily, there was this gay dude who goes to our school and I told her to ask for his number from the gay dude.
August 24, 2009
Today I had the most unusual (and probably the most spectacular) dream I’ve ever had. In the dream, I was sitting with a guy. In this dream, we were best friends. Not lovers, but you can say we were at heart. Our faces were never revealed in the dream but I know what was happening. I kissed him and everything fell silent. I kissed him again and then we kissed together. Over and over, the feeling overwhelmed and when I couldn’t handle such an amazing feeling anymore, I stood up and walked away. I walked home and went online. One of my friends, (I think it was Kasey) was online and I told him about the guy. He then asked me what he looked like. I knew what he looked like though I’ve never really seen him. I could have described him to Kasey but I was afraid that he would figure out who the guy was. So instead of being specific, I said:
Kasey: what does he look like?
Hanna: him = awesome
And then I realized that I should have used a different word so I said…
Hanna: awesome = hot
Lmfao.
I came back later hoping he would be there and he was. He was just sitting there like before and I sat beside him. I kissed him again and again. Everytime we kissed, the emotions kept getting stronger and stronger, banging on my chest, like it was trying to break free. Like before, I couldn’t handle it so I stood up once again and walked home. I realized that he wasn’t going to be around forever so I came back again but this time, he wasn’t around. The setting changed again and I was in a classroom. We were going to have a test. My cousin, Xheng, was there. And so was an old classmate, Keana. There were other students but I didn’t bother to check who they were. I just sat there, wondering where he would have went. Suddenly, the settings changed once again. The classroom and the people in it disappeared. There he was again, sitting on the same spot. I sat in front of him, facing him. We kissed repeatedly like before. The feeling was magical. I stopped dreaming for a while and woke up.
Note: This dream reminds me of an old dream of mine. In the dream, everything was white. It was like oblivion but there was a white bench in the center. I sat there, waiting for the man I would marry.
August 28, 2009
Another 3 day week end. Today was really awesome.
Friday morning
Nica went to my place so we could go to school together. I got ready while she waited. She actually came over so she could eat at our house since there wasn’t any food at theirs. After eating, we went upstairs and I brushed my teeth. She watched a movie that was on HBO (Addams Family Values). It was getting late so I told her we had to go. She kept saying “Wait, I’m watching” and I keep telling her we’ll be late but she keeps being a fucking pest and continued watching. I got annoyed and bugged her to leave. We got a ride and on the way, she asked me to pay for our fare so being the can’t-say-no type of girl that I am, I just said “Sure”. When we got there, she dragged me to this goddamn store to buy a headband. I saw my old guy best friend, Kim, walking home from school. He’s in the morning session which I just found out. He moved away a long time ago and now he’s back but we’re just ignoring each other now, thanks to me. Anyways, she always buys accessories which I think is annoying, a waste of time, effort and money. After that, I kept fucking telling her we were gonna be fucking late so I just stood there and tried my best to keep myself calm before I let all hell loose and stomp my way to school without her. While we were walking even further towards school, she dragged me to another fucking store to buy her precious pink pearl ear rings which is also as annoying and as much of a waste of time, effort and money as her fucking headband. When we got to school, she got all pissed and sad because we were late. And being the “nice” and loving cousin of her’s that I am, I tried my best not to fucking blame her for it even though I think it is entirely her fault. She has been a fucking bitchy little parasite for far too long. If she wasn’t my cousin, I would fucking avoid seeing her and cut all possible connections. FUCK. But whatever. I still love her because she’s family.
Friday Afternoon
So many students were late. If you stood from afar and viewed the amount of students standing at the gate, begging the guards to let them in, you would first think that it’s a concert. Hah. I didn’t want to just go home because of her idiocy so I told her that I wanted to stay there just in case the guards let the students in anyway. We waited and waited for so long. We sat there at the sidewalk across the school gates watching students give up and go home. We got less and less. There were about more or less 50 students left so this ugly lady guard scares some of them away by holding a cellphone up and pretending she’s taking a video and that she’s going to show it to the principal. They pussied out and left so about 20-30 students were left. Some students kicked and tried to climb the gates. The guards rushed to stop them and they ran off. Some students tried to sneak in through the court. I’m not sure if they got in but I heard the guards locked the gate there after that. You could see the window of Xheng’s classroom. Xheng left before us and wasn’t late. After seeing Nica and I from their classroom window, she tried to tell us something but we couldn’t hear her. We were shouting from outside. “I can’t hear you!”, “What?!”, “Haha, what are you saying!?”, etc. She wrote something on a piece of paper and tried throwing it at us but it just landed inside the school. After about an hour, Nica told me that she was going to leave for a few minutes with her classmate. So when she left, Xheng and I still tried sending each other messages through markers and papers. I couldn’t see her messages because the sun kept shining on the paper. I took some paper and a marker out. She used a marker and wrote “Go home” and I replied, “I don’t want to”. After that, she signalled me to wait and when she came back, she threw a notebook out the window. Luckily, it landed outside and I ran to take it. I looked at the cover. It was some other sudent’s notebook. A student from the morning session. Inside, there was a note that flew out. It said, “Show this notebook to the guards and tell them you’re going to the library”. I walked in without looking back, knowing I finally had an opportunity in front of me and there is no way I am giving it up. I walked straight inside and the lady guard saw me but ignored me. I walked upstairs and into our second class. Everyone was surprised but I just told them that I just walked straight into the school and the guards didn’t suspect anything. Our first class was vacant so the sophomore chairman just made my classmates go downstairs and punished them by making them bask under the hot sun. I’m one hell of a lucky girl. I just skipped a punishment and got in school anyway. Lesson for today: Being late is not always a bad thing. x]
Friday Night~
Nica probably went home after I went to school without her. It was raining and I walked home. Before I went to school, I borrowed Nica’s umbrella so that I could shield myself from the hot sun while we sat at the sidewalk, shaded by trees. When she left, I had the umbrella so I went to school with it. It just so happened to rain and I had the umbrella. Lucky, right? I walked home and Lars was there but I stopped giving a shit about him. Anyway, while walking home, Xheng and I saw each other so we walked home together. I stayed at my cousins’ place and then went home with Xheng and Nica so I could change clothes and go back to sleep there. When we got there, we spent the night eating at the eatery across the street, telling stories, roaming the streets, etc. Nica fell asleep when it was 2 or 3 am. My other cousin and I fell asleep when it was 4-5 am.
Sept. 3, 2009
Morning
All I remember about this day is when I woke up from a dream… In the dream, I was with the same guy on my last dream (August 24). There was no setting. It wasn’t blank but it was more like I just knew where we were. We were at a room at my cousins’ place and the guy was there. I couldn’t see his face, still. I couldn’t see him at all. In the dream, I think I just knew what was happening. I don’t think I could see anything. Anyway, all he was doing was kissing me on the neck. Each passionate kiss would burn (not literally) but instead of pain, I would feel pleasure.
Night
I slept at my cousins’ place again. I went outside to see my cousin, Nica, who was trying to borrow my old guy bff (Kim)’s bike but he wasn’t around. His brother, Kenneth, was there though, but he said the bike was already locked in and he didn’t have the keys.
So Nica’s attempt failed and we were just outside. Later on, Kim was around. (Btw, we’re not friends anymore.
..) He wouldn’t let Nica borrow the bike either, lol. Nica and I were just outside. When we heard my other cousin, Xheng (screen name), coming out, Nica ran towards a car across the street and hid behind it. She told me to follow her so I did. We ran around from car to car until we reached the middle of the very long street. We were laughing while Xheng was walking around looking for us. Xheng was looking for us in the internet cafe, inside the house, at the basketball court and at the bakery. Just walking around, looking, going in and out of the house to check. Xheng went in and was gone for a while. We just hid behind a car and then Nica went inside and I followed her. I hid behind the car in the driveway while Nica sneaked towards the door. When we got there, it opened and then she just fucking screamed at the top of her lungs. It was hilarious. We ran outside and up the very long, slanted street. It was exhausting since we were running up. It felt like running away from a bear in a fucking mountain except we were at a street running for the hell of it at midnight. Lmfao. It was awesome. We were just running and stopping to get some air for a sec. Xheng was chasing us and doing the same.
We ran and ran as fast as we could so Xheng wouldn’t catch up. When we got tired, we walked toward Xheng and we all sat down to gasp for air, relax and talk. Xheng told us about her side of the story. She was looking for us and couldn’t find us so she went in to check if we were at my aunt’s room. We weren’t but our aunt was there. She asked her where we were and my aunt told her to peek through the window and look at us behind the car. They were laughing as we were looking for her, waiting and running from car to car. After that, my aunt and Xheng walked downstairs and decided to get sweet, sweet revenge. They walked to the door at the same time Nica ran into the house and I followed (coincidentally) and then they both reached the door at the same time. My aunt was behind Xheng as she opened the door but Nica was there too so she was startled and shrieked and ran outside. Nica thought she was gonna crack. Again, it was hilarious. xD
After that, we walked down the street and sat just outside the house, near the gate. We just talked and did stuff. Kids were drawing on the road in front of the house earlier so my cousins got some water and washed it all off. We got bored after a while. We got around to getting Xheng chase us again as Nica and I ran up the street and around the next street. We ran so much that I felt a bit tired and remembered that stupid “1 kilometer run” bullshit we had to do for PE. I told my cousin to run towards a car at the other street so we could hide there. I sat at the bumper of a jeep and Nica kept telling me to hide somewhere else or Xheng will see me. I keep telling Nica that she won’t see us because there are more cars behind the jeep but she wouldn’t listen. She stood a bit farther from the cars and I kept telling her to stay close or Xheng will see us but she wouldn’t listen. She got caught anyway. She wanted to run away but I told her that I’m tired and I didn’t wanna run anymore. When Xheng caught up, I told them to get some water with me and we did.
We went inside and played cards with my aunt, her friend and Nica’s brother, Daniel, for a while. I kept looking out the window to look at Kim and Kenneth (eating at the eatery across the street next to their house) with this gay dude who is like their maid or something (It’s so hard to find decent maids these days). The gay dude’s name is Danica by the way but his real name is Daniel or Danny or something. (Nica’s real name is Danica and her brother is Daniel. Their father is Danny.) Sometimes I joke about how I bet one day he’ll change his name to Susan, Nica’s mother’s name. xD I kept looking every now and then while joking about how my head will explode if I accidentally jump have my head come in contact with the ceiling fan. Kim noticed I was looking so he walked to the window and stood there but then I felt shy and ignored him. I think it’s like an unvoluntary action I do whenever I feel shy. xD
It was raining a bit (except when we were outside, running and all that). When my aunt finally went upstairs with Daniel and went to bed, we sneaked outside. Xheng and I were hungry so we all went to the eatery across the street. The gay dude, Kim and Kenneth weren’t there anymore. We just ate noodles and then went inside. It was 1am and raining. A cold morning, the perfect time to sleep, I suppose. I just fell asleep, imagining and all that.
Sept. 19, 2009
The past few weeks have been so much fun. There was this day (I don’t remember when exactly) when I ate so much mentos that I started getting so fucking hyper. I’m usually really hyper at night before I crash to bed though. Anyway, after recess we have English class so I was so hyper at the time. We were studying about the tone of voice and how it can be used to enhance the conversation, etc. Our teacher asked us to think of emotions and then he would write it on the board.
Sir Y. : Can you think of some emotions?
*Students raise their hands*
Some of the ones that were given/written on the board: Hatred/Hate, Sadness/Sad, Anger/Angry, Happiness/Happy, Excited/Excited, Nervousness/Nervous, etc.
Sir Y: Alright, now what part of speech is hatred?
Students: verb…adjective…adverb
Me: Noun. Noun. Noun. Noun. Noun…
Students: NOUN!
*Sir Y writes it on the board*
Sir Y: How about sadness?
Students: verb…adjective…adverb
Me: Noun. Noun. Noun. Noun. Noun…
Students: NOUN!
*Sir Y writes it on the board*
Sir Y: And sad?
Students: verb! noun? noun! adverb!
Me: Noun. adjective… >_>
Students: ADJECTIVE!
*Sir Y writes it on the board*
And, well, you probably get the point. I have to fucking say it over and over again to give everybody else a clue. It was hilarious. My classmates started laughing because I was laughing so much on what I was doing. Anyways, after that Sir Y asked us to show how we can express those diff. emotions. I raised my hand and answered but he said, “Yes, that’s correct but can you show us?” so I stood up and tapped Ysabella (who sits in front of me) but she was ignoring me because she thought SHE was supposed to pretend to hate me. Then I said “YSABELLA!” so she finally looked at me and then I snapped my fingers up like those mean girls on tv do to look… well… mean.
Everyone laughed. It was awesome. I wish I could show you guys. Me and Jelly Ann volunteered to express the rest of the emotions. Then Sir Y took out some paper and taped it on the board. On it was written “I did not kill anybody.” and then he asked someone to volunteer and say it with different emotions. No one wanted to volunteer and I was just waiting for Sir Y to pick me (heh.). Sir Y walks towards me, looks and says, “Hanna, you want to give it a try?” so I stood up and said, “YES SIR!
“. I acted out the different emotions while saying “I did not kill anybody!”. It would be so much better if you guys could see it. I wish Nickelodeon would make some cameraman follow me around and make a documentary about my life. Then I wouldn’t have to type all this shit out for you guys to understand how fucking hilarious it was. You wouldn’t really get it that much unless you were there. :/ But it was fun though, I can tell you that.
So that little “shit-I’m-high-on-mentos-h-h-h-h-HYPER!!!” thing made our English class more fun than usual. And after that, Sir Y called me and our first honor, Cristalyn, and told us that there’s going to be some Oration for English and he wanted us to join. So we did because even if we said no he’d still enter us in the contest… yeah, that’s pretty much all I remember.
OKAY SO LIEK YESTERDAY (Sept. 18, 2009 Friday) OMG LOL WE HAD TO PRACTICE THAT ORATION THING.
Sir Y told us to be at school by 9am. He and Cristalyn kept reminding me (even though I already fucking knew, sheesh). On that very day, I got up early and got ready. I got out of the house 10-20 minutes before 9am and walked to this street where you can get a ride. On my way, there was this single car driving towards me in the street. I was just walking, minding my own business and looking at my brand-new-watch-OHYEAH! when the car suddenly slows down when it comes near me. It slows down and then stops and then the driver beeps (or whatever you call it). I thought he was going to park there and I was in his way so I walked away really fast. After 2 seconds I got this weird feeling that it was Sir Y because the car looked familiar. I look back and… it was him, driving away. :/ I was like, “SHIT. I COULD’VE ASKED FOR A RIDE. BAAAAAAW.”
When I got to school (-_-”) I walked around looking for Sir Y. I walked to the English Department and peek through their window and there was only 1 teacher there so I walked downstairs to the bleachers, to the English department again, passed by the canteen, walked back and up to the English Department again (xD) and then finally got the courage to ask the teacher where Sir Y was. She said Sir Y and the other teachers were at the canteen having breakfast. I go there, see a familiar face (English teacher) and walk into the canteen pretending as if I didn’t know they were there and just noticed them as I turn. BAAAYwatch. Lol I love doing that slomo shit. Anyways he was there as exprected and he said Cristalyn wasn’t around and I should wait for her so I went to the bleachers and waited for a while. It was hot there so I walked upstairs to the library where there’s air conditioning.
I got bored just sitting there so I got a book and started on my history homework. As I was writing the first sentence, the school guard walks in and looks for someone. (I knew it was me but I just wanted them to ask, haha) So I kept doing my homework and all that when the guard asks the only 4 students in the library our names. They asked me last and I said “Hanna Sambo” and the librarian asks, “Didn’t you get a library card?” and I said, “No.” The guard looks at the record and says “Well no wonder. You wrote ‘Oration Practice’ here”. And guess what happens next? Sir Y walks into the library just in time to save me from “The Mean Guard”. (Yeah, everyone thinks he’s mean. Very mean.) The librarian is nice so she said, “Ah, she just went here for a sec. She’s going to leave soon.” then Sir Y escorts me out. BOOYAH. We entered the English Department and he asks me to recite the piece he selected. He chose “To be or not to be” from Hamlet by William Shakespeare. Good choice, imo. I say a couple of lines and asks if I want to practice outside. I said yes and we went out and practiced just in front the English Department. I recite it and he compliments my pronunciation, diction, blahblahblah… says I say it too fast and I should talk a little slower for the audience to understand…etc. After a while he asks me if I want to try one last time. I say no and then we talked about it a bit and we both left. I went back to the library and he went back to the English Department.
I sit down and continue on the history homework. As I start on the second sentence, Cristalyn arrives. (p_p) She asks if the practice was over. I said, “Haha, we finished practice just now. If you want, we can go back there and practice again together.” She agrees and we both walk to the English Department. The former freshmen coordinator, Sir P (Hey, did I mention he’s sort of a bitch and is now an English teacher?) was there now and Sir Y was gone. I told Cristalyn that I remember seeing Sir Y leave and go to the other building as I was walking to the library. We waited there and she walks in on Sir P who talks to her for a while and then makes her make me come in. He says we should practice in the English Department and then he looks at me and makes me go first.
(He called me by my last name, none of these are accurate)
Sir P: Alright Hanna, you go first.
Me: Sir I just finished…
Sir P: Yeah, practice here. You go first.
Me: Sir I already did…
Sir P: Sir Y said that when you guys arrive, I should make you guys practice here.
Me: But sir I already practiced with Sir Y just now…
Sir P: Yeah, practice time, you go first.
Me: Uh… okay. *Practices*
After a while, I get near the end of the whole thing and Sir Y walks in and I was like “SIR!” with a sign of relief.
Sir P: Hey Sir Y. Hanna, there he is now. You can start over again.
Me: -_- *Does it again*
Then Sir P comments on my try. He says my diction, pronunciation, flow, something,.. uhm.. yeah he kinda said the same thing Sir Y did and he said I was talking fast too. He said I should just slow down a bit. Same comment as before. I was just reading the selection to be honest. I didn’t expect them to think it was good but when I heard Cristalyn do it, I stopped wondering why they thought I was doing good. I let her borrow my copy and she reads it. She just… well I wish you heard it lol. I don’t know if she reads. There was no emotion, she just talked on and on and stopped and started on the wrong places, couldn’t pronounce some words, got tongue-tied, etc. It was dreadful. :/ Not that I’m bragging or anything. I guess I just expected something better from someone who’s supposed to be the best in class. Others tell me she’s just a suck-up and that she’s boastful and plastic but I don’t judge people. I actually couldn’t tell, lmfao. Okay, getting too mean here.
Some teachers walk in. There were a lot more teachers that time. Mostly women. While Cristalyn was reading, these 2 teachers (both women) were joking around and giggling and I was looking at them and I was amused. One of them looks at me and I was looking at her and I smiled at her and she smiled at me. It was a magical moment, haha. Sir P gave us some seats and we sat at the other side of the room where he made us go. We kept on practicing. Actually, Sir Y focused more on Cristalyn that time. I was okay with it. Sir Y was explaining to both of us while helping her improve. While we were discussing it, this other teacher (woman) was watching us. I don’t know who else was watching us. I didn’t really want to look. I was focusing on just me, Cristalyn, Sir Y and Sir P. Since Sir P is going to be judging on the elimination and Sir Y is also playing an important part in the oration, I forgot what. Cristalyn has been pussying out since Sir Y asked us to join and she keeps asking me if I’m going to lose it on purpose so I won’t have to perform on stage. To be honest, I want to win in the eliminations but I don’t want to participate on stage in front of the entire student body.
Back to practice, the teachers were watching us and one of them suddenly says, “Sir Y, who is she? I like her hair.” Sir Y says, “Really? Which one?” and she points at me. Flattered, I smiled. Then she continues, “I like your hair. What do you call that hair style?” and I couldn’t answer because my hair style didn’t have a name. So I looked at Sir Y and said, “sir?” as if saying, “What did she say?” and Sir Y says, “She’s asking what you call that hair style.” and still not able to answer, I just said, “Sir, my mom cut my hair.” which was the truth. “Didn’t your mom give a name for that hair style?” she said. “No.” I said. (When I got home, I told my mom and she said, “Haha, you should’ve told her that we’re going to have it’s christening soon.”) We continued discussing. Before ending practice, Sir Y says, “Hanna, can you read it for us one last time? One for the road, two for the money, haha.” (Elvis Presley thing, I think. I told my mom about this and she sang a song.) So I read it and then the woman commented again and said, “Sir Y, you chose a good contestant this year. I have a feeling she’s going to win.” she was referring to me but I only heard the “you chose good contestants” part. Cristalyn told me the rest of her comment.
I’m feeling too confident. I haven’t even memorized it yet because Cristalyn borrowed my copy of the piece so she could have it photocopied and then lost it. Fuck her. I bet she meant to do that. She always does something stupid that makes me have to exert more fucking effort to counter-attack her sorry ass.
Oh I forgot to tell you guys… I’m only Top 8th in class. Baw. I was late a lot, cut classes, skipped school, got too lazy and failed Language and Math (my country’s language, not english of course and I lost my math book/notebook), etc. I didn’t think I would drop that low. I know I’m lazy and everyone knows I’m lazy but my lowest used to be 4th place. 8th place is bullshit. Everyone tells me they think I’m smarter than Cristalyn though. They say she’s only first place because she’s a suck up, she doesn’t have absences, etc. but I don’t care. She can do what she wants to be on top and I’ll do what I want to be on top to. I don’t care what kind of evil tactics they use as long as they don’t bother me, I’m fine with it.
Sept. 22
We had another fun oration practice at the English Department. Everyone enjoyed my performance and gave me compliments. I couldn’t say the same for Cristalyn.
Sept. 23
The best part of today was our last class, Language class. We discussed about the new technology and how it affects our society, both positively and negatively. Afterwards, the teacher asked us to think of an invention that we wanted to build to help mankind. Everyone was wowed by my idea and they even clapped and cheered. It was great. My idea was to build floating platforms wide and strong enough to support buildings. We could transfer buildings there so that we could use the land for agriculture.
Sept. 24
Today, before English class ended, our teacher made us finish our tests quickly so we could perform Hamlet’s Soliloquy in front of the entire class. He said it would help build up our confidence. Everyone kept making me go first. I didn’t want to at first but I stood up and performed anyway. On the first try, I was interrupted. Sir Y said “It doesn’t matter where she stands. She’s in front, let her perform.” So on the second try, I laughed in the middle of it because everyone had smiles on their faces. On the third try, I took a deep breathe and actually performed. I finished with a bow, soon followed by applause, all of my classmates, clapping and cheering.
When it was Cristalyn’s turn, she started and then she started getting tongue-tied, confused, forgetting and skipping lines until she finally gave up and said, “Sir, I don’t want to do this.” and so she sat down and everyone was still cheering for me. Cristalyn is supposed to be the best student in class since she’s first honor. I have high expectations for her and to be honest, I was really disappointed. I thought she was going to pick herself up like I did but she just gave up. I know that I can be arrogant most of the time but the only reason my classmates cheered for me was because I did the best I could. And to be honest, I don’t see that in her whenever she performs. The day Sir Y told us he entered us in the contest, she said she’ll be losing it on purpose. I doubt that. She’s just saying that because she knows she doesn’t have a chance of winning compared to our opponents. In my opinion, she lacks confidence. I mean, how is she even going to increase her chances of winning if she doesn’t try? I know this sounds so corny right now but I truly believe that winning or losing doesn’t matter as long as you did your best. And if you win because you did your best, then you will receive the greatest prize of all: the genuine feeling of achieving something you know you deserve.
Sept. 25
Today my cousin, Michael, celebrated his birthday. I went to their place to greet him. I didn’t have a present though but I brought our grandmother’s present for him. We ate and talked with my other siblings/cousins. It was a fun night. He hugged me. It was touching.
Other than that, we wrote essays during Language class and the teacher chose me as one of the student’s who would read their works. At first I didn’t want to because my piece was long but she said it was okay. So I read it and everyone was quiet, listening to what new things I had in store for them. After reading it, everyone cheered again. They’ve been cheering so much that I’ve been so willing to do more stuff at school. Life has been really wonderful.
Sept. 26
It was raining really hard all day. There was a storm. My siblings, aunt and I were watching Naruto Shippuuden online. After a while, I decided to take a nap. When I woke up, I found out that some streets including our’s lost electricity and that there were huge floods at some places. Floods at my aunt’s place reached her roof so she had to stay at her neighbor’s just to keep herself from drowning in the flood waters.
Sept. 27
The floods killed a lot of people. My aunt arrived at my cousins’ place and she’ll be staying there for a while. We’re so glad she’s okay. We love her very much. Anyways, my cousin (Xheng) and his girlfriend invited me to go to the mall to watch a movie. We did and then we went around the mall and in the department store, playing and just window shopping and looking around until we got tired and went home.
Okay so I guess that’s it. I hope you enjoy reading the post. Feel free to leave a comment.